life

Well life is complicated we all hit these cross roads and have 2 choices for ex: all of your friends are drinking and they ask u if u want some but ur pairents will kill you if they find out but u dont want to seem wierd or like a lozer so you have to deside what to do most of us would say yes thinking there mom and dad wont ever find out well i came to a 2 wayed road today and i dont know what to do my friend wants me to sneek out and go to this party with her saterday and i want to but i dont want to get cought i told her i am so gonna do it but now i am having second thoughts well i dont know what i am gonna do yet i have never snuck out of my house like ever but i guess there is a first time for everything right?

Ok i'm back haha ya you know that already anywho what do u say when all guys say is ya? I mean it is so annoying uggg ya ya ya ya ya what do u freaking say to that grr it makes me so mad i like freak out when that is all people say its like they cant hold a convo with out saying ya 100 times grrr well besides that me and my sisters bfs daughter were danceing in the road and were like being weirdos i bet if people seen us it looked like we were drunk haha but that is what is fun about it we can have fun with out being stupid well stupid stupid we were just being stupid but it was fun and i love it i would deff do it agean i love this girl she is so cool well that is all tata for now :)

Confused

Today my ex asked me to call him...I did and he told me that he thinks that the way i broke up with him calls for a redo and that i should start to date him agean. Well i broke up with him because 1 he cheated on me 2 because a girl who i thought was my friend would not stop talking shit on us and keep telling me he was cheating on me agean and 3 because i got told he was going to break up with me and ya i know that that one i shouldn't of listened to but i don't like to be dumped and was scarred he was gonna dump me so i thought i would dump him first. Well now he says that he didn't cheat on me after he came clean about it and that he was not planing to dump me but he lives in a different state and so i never really know. I don't know if i want to get back togeather with him but he is right when he says was not a fair break up, but i am now starting to wonder if maybe i was not liking the fact that it was a long distance relationship or what but i don't really know guys are really confusing and i am confused on what i should do :( sometimes i wish i was never really almost 18 sometimes i wish i was like 7 or 8 because i cant help but think maybe it wouldn't be as confusing or complicated.

Trouble

Guys? Who new how complicated liking them would be, I mean there is so much to think about. How old are they? Will they treat you right? Do they like you for you? Is sex all they want? And so much more. Well i like a guy if u didn't already know, but i cant tell if he likes me we don't hang out much and when we do it is around other people. This sucks how do you tell when a guy likes you? The thing that really sucks is i don't think he even knows i'm here, that i like him. How do you even tell a guy you like him, I know drop hints but sometimes it seems like they don't even pay attention to them like they don't pay them no mind. What should i do?

Cant Sleep

Well for some reason i cant sleep tonight i don't know maybe it is because i keep thinking about what everyone is saying about me, Maybe it is because i don't think i have any real friends. Ok me and my "friends" hang out but only when it suits them never when they just want to hang out with me. I don't get it maybe i ant that fun or maybe it is the wrong kind of people.......The only problem is there the only kind of people i know......Maybe i need to reach out to other kinds of people...I don't know what kind of people would except me though. I am the kind of girl that drinks smokes and loves to have fun but when u cant have fun by your self.   What do i do? and, Who am i really?

Invisible Girl

Well today started a new day but it is all the same. I get up attempt to get ready and nobody looks my way. I wonder if it should be a good thing i mean at least when nobody looks at me or anything people don't seem to talk much crap, or spread all kinds of lies. Who am i kidding they still do and i still try to make it look like it don't hut but in all honesty it does :( and it seams like there isn't anything i can do about it. i guess thats life..right i mean who cares about the people u talk crap on or spread lies about it don't hurt you so why should you care. People need to start to realise that what they say about people does hurt no matter if u think it is just a joke or a prank or what ever you want to call it it still HURTS. But nobody cares and nobody will take note to this it is just something said from a Invisible Girl.